Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Vicious Cycle

Have you ever had in your life a person you can't hate, no matter how hard you try, no matter how bad you got hurt? Have you ever lived through that vicious cycle when you get hurt and later you get angry but then find out you don't really hate the person? A person that can even pretend you don’t exist anymore and you still don’t hate him/her?

You try not to care, to pretend he/she doesn't exist too, but in vain; nothing works and you just can’t exclude that person from your life, no matter how little his/her role is.

And you keep trying, over and over again...but although you keep trying, you know you're wasting time and brain cells. Because he/she it's one of the people that left a mark in you, in your life, and you can't erase it because now is a part of you and of who you are; and nobody wishes to be less, right?

So you give up, you keep getting hurt, you keep getting mad and you keep forgiving; because there's nothing left to do. You just hope someday will hurt a little bit less; enough for you to ignore it and keep living.

'Trust the sun will always shine, when you have nothing else to trust in' AndieMaars
photo by Kevin Day

By Andie Fern Maars

1 comment:

  1. You know the feeling when we wanna trust someone but at the same time we don't? When we wanna forget but the world seems to want us to remember it until the end of our life? It's as you said, we want to get out but we can't; were stuck in this cycle. We keep handling the pain because we know there's nothing else to do...

    There's no secret, no magic formula to make it stop; and sometimes it's not enough to wish for a change because it's a part of who we are and we can't erase that.

    Keep inspiring us.

    'Trust the sun will always shine, when you have nothing else to trust in' - I should try it someday :)