Saturday, December 15, 2012

It wasn't just bad luck.. [Beth]

She's tired. Tired of the drama, tired of the tears and tired tired. She's not a quitter, she's a fighter, she doesn't give up... But right now, if she could lay her head in a flat surface and fall asleep forever, she would.

She would look in the mirror every day, and in each day that passed she recognized her reflection less and less; she was losing herself and there was nothing she could still do about it. Never for a second had she considered any of the other options that flashed through her mind, but to fight back; and there had been many other options, but all of them implied she would have to quit and she wasn't a quitter. She had fought for control from the very beginning when everything fell apart. And she'd fight every day, with all her strength, and every day she would fail; losing a piece of herself in the way.

She was failing, falling into the unknown and she couldn't understand how; because she never stopped fighting, not once. Maybe Life itself was giving up on her, or the World had something against her; what else could have happened for her life to be the way it was now? 

It wasn't just bad luck. No, that was something she knew like the back of her hand; she almost considers it like an old friend for so well she knew it. And this time it wasn't it, it was something more, something worse. 

~Andie Maars

Hello fellow readers (if there's any) :D
I'd like to introduce you to a new character of mine that takes part in a new story I'm writing. As you might have guessed, yes, the previous post - She knows it's nothing...Isn't it?! -was about her.

And here's what I can tell you, for now,about her:
She's a pure heart kind of girl, innocent and too naive, that had just got her quiet boring little world back until everything crashed down on her; again. Now she has to face some hard decisions that go against everything she grown up believing. She thinks of her self as a weak person, but she will discover in the hardest ways that she's stronger that she given herself credit.

I'm thinking about naming her Beth-Marie (but if you have a better suggestion please let me know and I'll seriously take it into consideration).

The story doesn't exactly has a defined plot yet but I'm working on it. I'll be posting here some parts of the story as soon as I write them...
Let me hear what you think, please?!  :)

Thursday, December 6, 2012


Don't measure amounts of Love
Measure its depth
Count the brightness of sparkles in the eyes
And those little shared smiles,
The things done
Without expecting something in return
And the way his fingers
Fit perfectly between yours when you least expecting
Count the compliments
And its contents
And remember a little cheesy feels good now and then
Don’t take things for granted
Love deeply,
Love purely,
Love with all you have
Just don’t let your heart get owned
By someone that simply doesn't care

~Andie Maars

I was feeling a little cheesy and voilĂ   :D

Wednesday, December 5, 2012


I know what you've been trough; I've been there before. And I know how much it hurts; I've felt that too. But giving up it's not an options darling - It never was, it will never be. The tears you shed yesterday will be tomorrow memories, if you aloud them to. But if you dwell on then like you've been doing lately, instead of just memories tomorrow they'll still be the painful thoughts you cried until dawn. Trust me when I say that is the last thing you want; never cry the same pains twice, it will only give them power to keep hurting you. Instead let the tears wash those unwanted feeling for you, take them out of your mind while the drops slide slowly down your face...

I used to like Wednesday...Not until 4 weeks ago it probably was my third favorite day of the week. Yes, it was a Wednesday when my heart broke for the first time, but I had already got over it long ago. I had already forgiven that Wednesday.
And it was a Wednesday when I found out how broken you are darling... Don't let those scars define you. Don't let the tears overrule your nights. But the most important might be not letting him define your happiness; because you deserve that beautiful smile that once filled your face always.

Show the world, show him, how strong you are darling. Turn the pains into strength, the tears into smiles and use this experience to prevent future ones. Never take anything for granted darling and never hand out your heart to the first guy that says nice things. I'm not saying not to love too fast - love the fastest you want dear, it's good for the heart to be swelled with love -, just keep something to yourself until you're certain you're getting something equally satisfactory in return. 

Don't measure amounts of love. Measure its depth. And you'll be fine, eventually.

I hate Wednesdays! But I love you...

~Andie Fern Maars

Not sure if is a W.I.P or not, but it definitely needs a few retouches when I find the time to do so.  Updated 12.03.2013