Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Good vs Evil

When we were kids we often heard adults saying that “bad people go to hell and the good ones go to heaven so we should become good kids because the good always prevail over the evil” at that time we are presented with the concepts of god and devil. Then we reach the control remote and turn on the television to watch cartoons or other series for kids and we saw that that the hero always manage to defeat the villain and for some reason when they finish defeating the evil ones they always ended up doing a crazy pose while saying something philosophic (I never understood why).

Then when is time for bed the adults come and to tell us stories about magnificent characters that fight the bad ones in heroic ways so they can save the ones they care about and just when they think that we are asleep they start fighting. In the next day we go to school and saw someone crying, cursing god for something and we hear adults say that by doing that we will go to hell. At the time that our parents came to pick us up and for some reason we decide that we want something and hear a no as an answer, then we start crying and making a fuss and once again we hear that “bad things happen to bad kids so we should behave” and we do as we are told.

As we grow up we start to understand that the usual talk about good prevailing over evil it’s just a myth or it can also be called a miracle because it rarely happen and there is only a few people that see it happen. We begin to know that there is more evil that good in the world and that adults have been lying to us all along (only later is they we understand that they did that for our protection). That all those wonderful stories that we were once told have a name given by the adults “fiction” in other words none of that actually happen.

And so because of all of that and other circumstances in our lives we are forced to choose between good or evil and so we do it even if it means that in the future that choice would change.

Lily Mead Mein

P.S.: if anyone has an idea for a better title for this publication, please leave a comment bellow. 

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Every day (What are you looking for?)

"What are you looking for, after all?" You asked before you turned your back to me and left; that was the last thing I heard of you.

What am I looking for, you ask? If I had the nerve to answer you, I’d call you back and say I’m looking for what’s good for me. And if I told you this face to face you’d put that look in your face, you know, that look like I’m being crazy for saying something nonsense. Then you’d probably be silence for a while, lost in your mind and then, you’d sigh and say: - "I could be good for you, I know I would".

I’d answer back that you were probably right; you could turn to be something good for me. But just because I know something is good for me, it still doesn’t mean my heart will think the same. There you’d laugh and say that the heart doesn’t think; and you’d probably say that with a tone of cynicism in your voice like I was lunatic for saying something like that. But deep inside you’d know I’m right for believing in that. Because you know me. You know how my heart was a ‘mind’ of his own and, honestly, doesn’t care if anything is right or wrong if it’s what it wants. Or at least you should know; haven’t you said you fell in love with me because of my words? Then you should know it was my heart that wrote all those words, all those confessions, because my own mind it’s too shy, too coward to express them.
Then you’d say that you’re tired of trying to fix me, of trying to make me understand that I need to let go and move on. Who are you to say if I need or not to let go? I could say you were implying that I'm still suffering because of that same old crap because I choose to do so. Who's the crazy one here now?

That would be the point when I’d lose it. I’d look you straight in the eye and I’d say: - "I’m not suffering, not anymore; I’m long past that. And if you think I’d ever choose to feel that way then you don’t know me at all; I’d never chose pain over happiness. And if you’re tired then go, no one asked you to stay; I always thought you were here because you wanted to be, no charge implied. Maybe you’re not that good to me; because what’s good for me is someone that will do the fixing without realizing I need it or that they’re doing it in the first place".

I need someone that will stay, even if it’s hard, even if they’ve to struggle to remain sane in this crazy world like I do; every day. 

~Andie Maars

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