Distance is a funny thing...

Distance is a funny thing.

Nothing ever seems too far until the moment you can't reach for it. You never realize how important those little moments are, until you spend a while without sharing them; taking for granted that they'll always be there, until they don't. Then the longing squeezes the heart a little harder that it usually does...

You might never have been a big fan of walking in the streets hand-by-hand, but suddenly the spaces between your fingers feel emptier than ever. You find yourself missing those sweet nothings once you though were too corny, that now fall, whispered, from you lips for the walls to catch them because the one they're meant to be is out of reach. 

"Out of sight, out of mind" 

And never anything else sounded so fake to your ears for you know that just because you can't see it, it doesn't make it any easier not to remember. And that's all you do when no one is looking - remembering. Remembering the laughs, the talks and the whispered confections. Replaying it all over and over again until you finally fall asleep, wishing, with all your strength, to dream of that in that night. And never before you had any problem in cutting your dreams short to wake up every morning, but now you'll beg for 5 more minutes so you can keep dreaming with the one that is far away.

You'll most surely end up questioning your sanity because that person is now stuck to your brain 24/7, and you don't even know why! And although you'd prefer to dream endlessly while you can't have the real thing, each night that comes and goes is one night closer to the day you'll finally meet...again.

~Andie Maars

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Hello fellow readers (if there's still any)

Yes, I'm still alive! :D 

First, I'd like to apologize for the lack of posting; my life has been a mess but hopefully it will calm down soon. Second, I also realized Lily hasn't posted in a while. I'll check back at her and maybe soon you'll have something new from her here. (UPDATE 17/11/2013 - Lily says she probably won't ever post again here, dunno why. Her posts will remain if you want to read them again. You'll have to stick with just me now :D )

And last, but not least, I've been working on a few different things while I was away, so expect new things in a near future. Also, expect more about Beth; I'm not done with her yet :)

Distance

I never for once though we would get this far, this far from each other. From inseparable to disposable, and that hurts. How did we change from everything to nothing, the meaning of us?

Who though distance could change people like that... But it didn't have to be like that, I know people who made it through. So why can't we?

You'd just shrug and say: "Things change"

We can change style, company or environment and everything else around us changes too. But there's some things that shouldn't change; things I once thought had roots deeper and stronger that any change.

I was wrong.

I was wrong, I know it now. I learned it the harder way: I only realized once it was already too late to bring things back to where they used to belong. Still, I wake up every day wishing nothing had changed or that nothing changes again. And every day I fall asleep with the same disappointment filling my tired soul. 

I'm tired. Tired of fighting, of being the only one who cares, of being the only one carrying the blame when I know it's not all my fault.

Because I didn't stop trying, did I ?!?

I don't care (Appleberry) | by ~AndieMaars | Exclusively on blogger  

                                                                                                                   ~Andie

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And without having anything related to this post, I'd just like to wish a Happy Birthday to a wonderful friend of mine. Even without you noticing, you were there in the moment I needed the most; Thank you for making me smile again J :)