Lego Love

I’ve been asked thousand times since I found you, if it was love at first sign that brought us together. That mythical thing that happens it that fist millisecond our eyes really look into each other. And I find it hard to disappoint people because, in true honesty, love at first sign does not exist. Yes, attraction at first sign exists and that is really all that happens it that magical millisecond: the connection is made. After that it’s up to you if you want it to evolve into something more. 

And we did, we cradled that sparkle of something into our arms and built what we are today. It wasn’t easy, but when are the good things ever easy to obtain? What’s the fun in easy if you didn’t learn a thing or two in the way? Because as someone very wise once told me, it’s not about getting to the finish line but how we get there. 

Love is like stepping on a Lego brick, minus the excruciating pain I mean (although it could be quite painful sometimes). First you realise it’s there even if you could swear it wasn’t just the second before. Then you remember than if you connect that single little brick with others you could build something, something no one else built before. So, true to your thoughts, you pick it up and together with other pieces you build something. And every day you add another piece, completing that complex piece that, if everything goes right as you hope, will never be complete. 

You'll just keep adding brick after brick until the day you are out of them.

Make Love | by - laura242 | On DeviantART

(to be continued...)

~Andie Maars

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Hello dear readers :D

I'm sorry for the long absence. I just moved to another country where I'll live for a few more months before moving back home. Life is slowly falling back into routine and I have to say, it's probably the hardest thing I've ever done. 

[ Disclaimer: I do NOT own this photo. All the credits go to its righfull owner. Check the link under it. ]

Selfless

I would say it wasn't because I didn't do it. I think it was more the rejection itself; the word no. And I understand your anger, I do. If it was the other way around, I know for a fact you wouldn't say no, not in a million years. But that's just how you are, you put everybody else before you without complaining; you are loyal, the most loyal person I've ever met. And that is one of the (if not the biggest) reasons I fell in love with you in the first place. 

I. Am. Sorry.

I'm sorry I'm not like you, I'm sorry if I tend to be selfish it the worst moments - the ones you need me not to be. I'm sorry you have faced some hard times lately. But you also need to understand how hard it is for me too. It's all new to me, wavering between your problems and my own hardships. And I know it won't get easier once I leave... My biggest fear? That I won't seen it coming, that you'll get better at hiding it just because I happen to be miles away. And it hurts, it hurts knowing you might be hiding stuff deep inside, just because of how selfless you are, when I need you to trust me. Your problems became my problems also when we decided to become "us" instead of just "me and you". Your pain is my pain, and your happiness will make me happy too. That's how it works, it's a mutual agreement, one you signed on the dotted line with a kiss and a mute request for me to be yours. 

So stop acting like you must suffer all the pains and sorrows of the world on your own. Because you have not. And if you let me carry half the burden, the journey will be so much easier... 

~Andie Maars

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Hello dear readers :D

Another kind of dark.. something. I feel my system will crush sometime soon if all this negativity doesn't go away soon. I'll try to stop by more often., hopefully with some happier contents.  

I hope you'll have an awesome 2014 :D 
(Hope you understand how I feel now my dear)

Not So Bright...

It's Christmas time! Normally that is a synonym of happiness and joy, of giving and receiving. Happy times. But not for you, not really. 

For you, Christmas is just a remainder that last year around this time your thoughts weren't that bright. In fact, they were so dark they led you to almost doing something dreadful, and I can only be grateful for whatever reason made you change your mind at the last second. 

But that is not what really scares me the most. Yes, you tried, and it frightens me to think whether you will attempt that again... What really scares me the most is that I was there - not physically, but there. I was there and didn't see that coming; I didn't notice your mind was clouded with such dark thoughts. And it makes me wonder if I was that absently or if you were just really good at hiding it. Honestly, I don't know which is worst.

I'd like to say I did better this year, better at spotting whenever you're mad or upset. Then again, to what extent do you let me see it? How much are you hiding?

I'll probably never fully understand you nor what led you to attempt that, but I swear I'll try my hardest to be there for you whenever you need me - even if you don't ask for help.

I just hope this year I've given you enough reasons to brighten up your mind... and make you stay.

It Feels Like Christmas | by - AndieMaars | On DeviantART

~Andie Maars

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Hello fellow readers :D

I know, it's kind of dark for such a jolly season, but I needed to get it out of my system or I'd go nuts. 

Happy Holidays and I hope you have an awesome 2014 :D 

Changes

Hello

As you can see, the blog went through a huge change: Lily is no longer posting. She certainly has her reasons, and life goes on...

So now is just me, Andie. Hope you'll still stick around :)

I'm thinking about start post not only long texts but shorter things, a little rambling now and then...That way I could post more often. What do you think?

Let me know please. And feel free to leave suggestion about anything, really anything. New ideias for posts, photos, even music to play here!

~Andie Maars

Happy Right Now

I did not ask for you to be perfect, nor I want you to be; I love you as you are and I don't want you to change.

I did not ask for a fairy tale, and I know it won't always be sunshine and butterflies. We'll have good days, not so good days and maybe even bad ones. There will be days when you'll doubt yourself and other when it will be me having doubts. But do not ever doubt I love you.  

I also did not ask for a "Happy Ever After", I asked for a "Happy Right Now" because life it's too short and I'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes. You can say I deserve better and, honestly, I'm clueless about what life will bring, but I know that the best I know I have it in you. And, if you don't mind I stay, I'll stay, with you, in this something we have I like to call mine; ours.

I think you fail to see how important you are, how much it means to me to have you. And, putting aside all the fears and insecurities I also have, I'd rather have you focused on the "now" and let the "later" for another day.

I understand what goes on your mind, I understand the source of all the concerns, I really do. I understand how scary it can be to let something you can't control take over the reins, knowing that if it doesn't end like you wished and dreamed, or if it does end, you'll fall, it'll hurt, and it'll take a while for you to be back on your feet. And while a part of you wants to go with the flow and enjoy while it's good, the other wants you to stop right now - before the fall. I understand, I really do. But the journey it's different when you're not alone, and you have me.

Let me walk with you, side by side. Let me make mistakes with you and learn, with you also, to turn the wrong right and right what when awry. Because while you're by my side, I have my "Happy Right Now" and tomorrow... tomorrow can wait.

To Infinity... | by - AndieMaars | On DeviantART

~Andie Maars

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Hello fellow readers :D

I'm sorry for the long absence, sometimes life just gets in the way... but I'll try to stop by more often.

So, what do you think? Is it any good? Let me know please :)

As usually, you can find that photo on my DeviantArt page, feel free to stop by and say Hi!